It happened again. UGH. I had my heartbroken by a “friend”. This is two this year. Disappointed and hurt. When this happens I ask myself the simple questions… what did I do wrong? Did I not communicate? Did I trust the wrong friend? What did I do right?
I’m a big fanatic on communication, I’m honest and say my truth. I listen and learn. I know all my “true friends” know they can come to me and ask me anything! Ask me why I said or did what I did. I would explain myself and my actions. If I hurt your feelings, ask yourself what was my intent? I know it wasn’t to hurt your feelings. Not who I am!
I have my issues with trust and always have. I don’t really trust too many people and I have my reasons why. I never really have and it hurts to say that. I have tried, but when I do I seem to get burned. We always get hurt by the ones we love most. I’m told this is life and how it works. Kind of sucks sometimes. I know my boundaries can be better and I’m working on them everyday. I know I let people in too close, but that’s cuz I want to help where I can. UGH. My codependency gets me every time!!
In conclusion… I just wish my “friends” would communicate like an adult. I do NOT read minds. I’m tired of the pain and disappointment. I don’t deserve it. Most of all I LOVE my friends and I miss both of them BIG time.