Yo! I’ve been thinking a lot about my life these days. Now that I’m older and can look back it makes life very interesting now. I see the good, the bad and the ugly of life. I see the highs and lows of my life. I know why I am where I am today! What do they say… hindsight is 20/20. They are SO correct. Yes, the past is the past and we can learn a lot from it. ALSO it can really fuck you up for how you live in the present.
Getting over the past is not easy. Those scares are always there. I was taught long ago to learn from my past. Learn from the good and bad. I have done a pretty good job so far. BUT it’s the bad that seems to be louder than the good lately. The bad shit is loud and annoying. The disappoints, failures and heartbreak want to be heard. I do my best to push back and deal with it, but it’s not easy. More difficult than ever actually.
I’m doing the work and dealing with my past. Not letting it hold me back. Not letting it get in my way. It’s not easy, but what is? One thing that is helping me is talking with mentors, adults and wise friends. I like getting fresh new perspective and advice. My past will never leave me, I just need it to stay out of my way and leave me alone once in a while. Is that too much to ask?